To His Majesty

This page is for one of my works called Random thoughts. It is a compilation of a 1000+ pages of interaction between me and God. I took the best of the best and compiled it down into a few pages.

Random Thoughts

Words between Me and Him

The words from God are in bold print

My words are in regular print

“I am calling you to myself to see and hear me and be filled with my life and love. Be filled with the power of my love that will radiate out of your inner being to flow like a river to parched hearts and minds.”

I must believe that God wants to do things for me, but not assume what exactly those things are. Let my Hope be transfigured by faith to become the Hope that Christ always meant it to be—a Hope in Him, not a hope in an unrealistic dream. It is not that the dream is bad; it just needs to be rectified by the fires of our Most Holy Spirit.

“Have patience. There isn’t any obstacle that cannot be overcome in Me. In living for yourself, you allowed obstacles to in your life to cause you to miss the way. The only way to overcome them is to go through them with Me. Overcoming means humbling yourself and obeying. I don’t require you to overcome them, you can’t. You must come to Me to overcome them. When you begin to see me in the situation that is when you will overcome them.”

Until the source of my satisfaction and how I am satisfied is in you—I will never find peace or the fulfillment in any granted thing.

“Let the expression of your soul be conformed to the expression of My Heart through the faithful expression of your obedience to My expressed will.”

“There is a light penetrating the darkness that surrounds you, a piercing through in the veil of doubt and confusion. Do you believe Me? See through the intentions of your own heart. See the truth: The True Reality Which always existed but was never seen. When you see this true reality, you will have peace. There is true freedom and true peace when you see the true judgment of My reality. Be at rest in your heart and wait patiently for it to come

Dreams are a powerful tool. They can crush your spirit or revive it. You overcome through having the right dream as your focus and properly working it out. But you also need friends to encourage, counsel and direct you so that the dream can be seen clearly in My light.

Your dream will twist and stagnate unless it is properly exposed by Me. See through the veil of your intention. See your dreams in the light of My reality, My word, My saints, and My revelation to you. Surety is what many crave, but the only surety you need is My Word because the issue of the will and the flesh has to be confronted. Unless there is no surety, the will, the flesh and the mind will not be properly exposed. Do not run from a lack of surety, but embrace a transforming light to become Holy and trusting in My sight.

There is a Hope beyond reason. There is a love beyond emotion. There is Strength of faith beyond the power of the will to accept it. Only in Me can you find the power to overcome. Only in My Light is there a hope beyond the hope of this earth. In the circumstances that overwhelm—-I AM THERE”

“It is no longer a question of the outcome of circumstances but of following the truth no matter what the cost. The cost of following Me is to bring death to every hope that is not founded in Me. The light of My Holy Truth revealed you and now you must bring your life into subjection to Me. Obey My revealed will and do not balk at the Real facts and Real circumstances that face you. I THE LORD WILL BE VINDICATED IN MY ACTIONS TOWARD YOU—-BELIEVE ON THAT!”

True Maturity is not spectacular or clear….It is an implicit deep trust in the manner and ways of God—There is no obvious clear signs, just a deep understanding that through the ups and downs—God is faithful—The mature man banks on God.

“There is a fountain flowing from the throne of God called ‘peace’—it is for the Healing of the nations, relationships, bodies and minds—Those who dwell near this river and eat of the fruits of the trees that grow on it will never be put to shame. For their mind is clear and their heart is light. It is not a question of have or have not but believe or believe NOT. Do you believe Me? I am the center of Heaven. The center of Your Life. Dwell on Me and I will free you from the need to be and bring you a true desire to just live.”

The thing that tripped me up was seeing the feeling of guilt and not the fact of it. I didn’t feel guilty but my actions were based in guilt. The Key idea here is that I was praying and devoting myself to God in an attempt to somehow have God or the Process get me out of the hole I was in. When I stopped worrying about the hole and simply worshipped Him, I started coming out of the hole.

The problem is not in the vision, but in placing the foundation under the vision. Everyone has read in fairy tales of the castle high on the mountain. But what makes that castle majestic? How did it get up there? The foundation has given it the opportunity to be what it is.

My problem is that I see the vision all too clearly, but I am not there yet. I rail against myself for not being there, because I see myself in a pleasant place but right now I am in the midst of hell and pressure and fear and lust and foolishness of my own making. It is disheartening.

But now I am seeing that Jesus is holding me, working with me. He is using the pain and hell of the present to make in me the man I am meant to be for His purposes. This pain is meant to make me stand up and take my place and be strong. I am also seeing that where I am is emboldening me to see His face, His presence, His word, His life. I am no longer content with secondary loves. My first love must be Himself; for He is my point of reference…..He is the foundation builder to making the dream real. He doesn’t do this by giving me a plan, but by bringing me into relationship with Him everyday and showing me that these everyday things are being used to build the foundation of this castle in the sky that will one day be made real.

I AM ABOUT TO COME…….

I AM THE JUDGE, I WILL SHOW JUSTICE ON WHOM I WI SHOW JUSTICE, MERCY ON WHOM I WILL SHOW MERCY, I WILL BURN THE CHAFF AND HARVEST THE WHEAT, I WILL RECTIFY EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN MADE WRONG. DO NOT PRESUME TO JUDGE ME FOR YOU DO NOT KNOW OF WHAT YOU SPEAK. STAND STILL AND IN FAITH IN YOUR GOD, YOUR CHAMPION AND HE WILL OVERCOME. NOW, DO NOT DOUBT WHAT I SAY, FOR THIS IS THE HOUR OF RECKONING. THESE ARE THE DAYS OF MY COMING TO EARTH IN POWER AND HEALING AND HIS PAIN IS FOR THE REVEALING OF MY GLORY AND THE SHOWING OF MY POWER IN THE EARTH AS A TESTIMONY OF MY LOVE AND FAITHFULNESS. HE IS A WORD TO BE SPOKEN IN A DARKENED GENERATION. STAND STILL, MY SERVANT-MY SON AND BELIEVE

“You can do this. You can be an over comer, a champion. You must show that you can overcome the assaults of the enemy and not get overwhelmed by self-attitudes. You must show you can handle the sideways attitudes and faults of others and give them grace. I can show you what is in man so that you can work with them, but understand that counting on them is hard to do….that is why My disciples had to go through what they went through. They had to get broken before they could get fixed.

Be at peace and lay that issue at My feet. Worship Me, Seek Me and let go…..tonight find my heart…..today see the reality of My work come to pass. Be patient, be real, no expectations.”

This much IS true. You must live in My Reality. You must be broken bread and poured out wine…..to live in the reality of the scriptures. You cannot live in your imagination.

“Forsake the lowness of your means, and the lowness of your love and the lowness of your point of view. Embrace the heart of God and find the point of view and the stride, of God about these things and you will see the blessing of your heart come to pass. It is not that I don’t want to do it, but that you must do it for MY reason not yours. You must see the Why of God to go forward with My blessing.”

You must choose to take heart and to believe that I am good and that I do good, even if you cannot see what is happening at the time

Blessed is he who chooses the Lord over the things of this world. For then the Lord can trust such a one with the things of this world without those things corrupting them or turning them aside to a false or distracting vision

I know you don’t understand this, because you don’t think you have done anything but be in a wilderness and seek My face…..but when I said to My son ‘this is my son in whom I am well pleased.’ I was saying that over the 30 years of his regular life of submission to parents and being a carpenter in the world, but not of it. I was proud of you the day you committed to Me….with all of your bondages and problems…..they were always there, but the incoming of My Life brought them out into the open

…..You now see what Moses Saw…..that he needed communion to be free from the sin that warped his point of view……He needed to be one with Me that He may see his condition and be cleaned from it and on the basis of that now Holy Communion, He would be able to receive clearly the plans of God and implement them from the point of view of God without getting them warped by his own self-issues.

The purest heart is not the one who never falls down, but the one who will not be separated from Me by anything. Although such a one falls down many times, he refuses to stay down and quit……He gets up and presses on regardless of the cost to his identity and self. He knows he is seeking a greater thing than himself and a greater purpose than his own purpose. He is not about satisfying himself but the highest. Refuse to surrender and give up your destiny and purposes IN ME…..not in yourself or your own identity of what YOU want to do, but in what I would have you do…..My interests in your life and future and my perspective on your past. Seek Me, Know Me, Love Me above all others and I will rectify who you are and make you holy.

Teach Me how to win, Lord. Not My plans, but yours. Show Me what to do, where to go, what I was made for.

“First Rule: You are not beaten in anything until I say so.

Second Rule: Don’t assume the worst in any situation.

Third Rule: Put some confidence in who I have made you to be.

Fourth Rule: Step out on the Basis of the work I have already done in you.

Fifth Rule: Humble yourself when you are wrong.

Sixth Rule: You are good because I have made you. People like you for who you are no matter how imperfect you are.

Seventh Rule: God wants to help you win your dreams. Stop assuming otherwise until I clearly reveal it.”

You cannot come to Me in any other way except unconditional love and grace. I accept your unconditional surrender. But I want to warn you: Not everything is as it seems. You are about to succeed where you thought failure was certain. Your failures are about to turn to gold and I am about to work a mighty deliverance. The reason I am going to do this is that your heart will be wholly MINE. It will not be mine because I gave you what you wanted, but because you know I love you completely as a father and a friend. You will know, absolutely, that your God represented you and vindicated you and you will never, never again return to this place of rejection. You WILL be free

“You must come face to face with who you really are. This is not a bad thing, but a magnificently good thing. You are a Champion and a Hero who has been called out for awesome, beautiful things. I have come to make you WHOLE; whole in Me, whole in your life and full in your purpose. You will say “It is hard, but it is good.” That is the statement of a person walking in their purpose. But son, do not believe that I can not bring you through this valley into the promise and the things of your heart. I can and though you are not sure of it: I will. But first you must become My man of God. That is what you have become tonight…… you are learning to represent My heart and to follow My will. That is what we have been learning all these years. It is as you say: learning to unlock the door to God’s heart is the hard part, the rest of it comes pretty easy. Most people in the body do the external stuff first then try to find Me….You have found My heart first and now it will be easier to get everything else, because now I can give it to you. You will be frightened a little at how easy it will be to get them now. You will give the glory to God because you fear Me and Love Me.

But stay still in Me, in the rest and peace of God, not returning to the former things but seeking Me in worship and in humility that you might know God more closely. Nothing is so far away that I can’t bring it back again…..but some things are better left behind….Just look at what you wanted that you are glad you didn’t get! But this one thing I will do for you: I will show you a clear sign that you might know, now is the time to go forward and fight for Me and What is My will for you and in you and through you to others and especially to your promise. You will know soon.”

“Do you understand your need to come to Me? It is because in Me you will have the means to do what you say and pray you want to do. You cannot do this in your own will, but in My will you will see the hope of God penetrate your soul and give you hope even in the darkest and most forlorn of places. But if you go forth without Me you will keep struggling against this harness of the enemy. You Can Do this, if you can do My will and see that it is good as you walk before Me in meekness and simplicity you will see that I am doing my work in the very things that you do today. People do not understand what is going on in you and through you……You are not ministering in their way but in mine for the goals that I have set before you….and you are attaining them.

But a day will come when I will reveal all that is happening over your life. I will vindicate you in the journey I have taken you on with My presence and power. Know this: as you do this in Me and through Me and with Me, I will lead you into the blessing of your life: Your heart desire will be made real—flesh as you will see that I have overwhelmingly supported your Godly desire. Do not be afraid or run from this, but run into My arms and into the places I direct…and you will see the truth of what I have been doing all along.

I am very proud of you and I am going to tell the world how much I love you and favor you…..because Adam, you ARE a champion and a hero….I have given you great giftings, but you would give them up for Me…..and because of that I can do very great things through you. You have chosen the key of David, the key to My Heart and you will have it. Patience and Hope, son, Patience and Hope.

Holy Spirit: “Believe Also In Me, that I am more than capable of helping you through to the other side of your issues. I am your friend and comforter. I will advise. I will counsel. I will enable you by My Might. I will Vindicate you. You HAVE done well in MY eyes. And Yes, You ARE in fact, My friend…….and I like you as much as you like Me. It IS special to have someone who desires intimacy with Me as much as with anyone else. It is for that reason that I am going to help you win the heart of your promise…..because you took the best part of your life and gave it to Me……you WERE selfish and self-absorbed, but like Jacob you had the presence of mind to give Me the best part of you. I will not forget that, ever. I will not lose you to sin, I will not lose you to broken dreams, I will fulfill My Promise to you, and I expect as a friend you will trust Me. Were friends, right? That’s right isn’t it?”

I am here to seek you…….even if I don’t really find you very well or hear your voice audibly .

I am here to give justice and mercy, even if I don’t receive it

I am here to learn to stand in righteousness and humility, So that I may learn how to GO.

I am here to learn from Christ his ways, his nature, his very essence that I might deliver men and women into his arms.

I am here to embrace Christ and unlock the door to His heart by the leading of the Most Holy Spirit, even if that means losing my dreams in the process.

I WANT YOU, I DO NOT WANT ANOTHER OR ANYTHING ELSE! I AM COMMITTED TO FINDING YOU AT ALL COSTS!

You are my destination now…..not a girl or a job or a home or a ministry……you are what I am looking for.

 

 

Sometimes Adam, I am going to ask you to die….but sometimes you are dying because you don’t want to take responsibility for yourself or for growing up. Take a good hard look at yourself Adam, You are more than mature enough to capture your promise, but you are afraid of entering in because you don’t really want to have to face the responsibility of walking out what I have put in. It is MUCH easier to live in failure because you are never expected to grow up and be responsible for your own life because it is somebody else’s fault. You are not afraid of failure, but of facing success…..”

If I succeeded, I would have to grow up……be responsible, I would have to set aside a lot of diversions and apply myself to learning things and practicing discipline…..

“You mean doing things you really don’t like to do? Has it ever occurred to you that maybe those things aren’t really what I have for you? Do you have a problem being who you are and enjoying who you are? I like your life the way it is and the things I would have you to do when you succeed are not killer or depressing, but satisfying and wholly enjoyable…..but your eyes are on your identity, which you have invested in these things….that is what causes you so much stress. You simply cannot believe that it should be THIS easy…..But it IS this easy……You cannot believe that if you are who you are which is what you have been attempting to be that anyone, would care to come to you AS YOU ARE…….”

Is that what is going to happen? Is that what you want Me to see….that they accept and appreciate Me as I am?

“I am not doing this because of that only, but because I want to show you the Power of My Love and Your purpose in Me. I have put you through much that I might reveal much in your life and in through you to others. You are a champion, Adam, and the others see it…..NOW they will see what I have kept you in tabernacle ministry for. I am not interested in a short term success, but a long term victory…..As you have said….the OTHER 90% of the community not just the 10% that they always could get in the first place.

Do not believe that this is only done for your benefit, but for the benefit of the kingdom and the revealing of My Purposes in you. I want to save My people and I want you to see the kingdom purposes in What I am calling you out to do.