Slow Down April 29, 2008
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I need to slow down……and be more thoughtful in my job and life……..I am going too fast and making too many mistakes…….why? Because I want to look good in the eyes of men. I want my bosses to feel that I am valuable……..I want my friends to think highly of me…………but my lack of following the proper protocol and thinking about what I am doing has been getting me into trouble.
I guess I am going too fast……….and my speed is a product of my unbelief……..I don’t really believe that my friends like me…….I don’t believe that God has good plans for me…….I don’t see that things are working out……that I am safe in His Hands………….and it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy………..I lose things because I am afraid of failing……and so I do fail……….
Oh, Lord…….help me to believe…….help me to slow down……to walk by faith…..to do less, but do it better………I am not helping anyone by killing myself……….I am not showing grace and compassion and the kingdom if I run so fast that everything is done terribly………..I choose to believe in who I am and who my friends and family are…….I choose to take this one day at a time…..and to not worry what happens………but to make sure that my heart is in the right place………..you will take care of the rest.
Without a Hook April 25, 2008
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My Goal is to seek the Lord…..to represent Him………in my service to others, to my loved ones and my friends…..without motive. I want to honor the generations……without a hook…..without intention other than his own.
O’ Lord, let my yes be yes and my no be no be no let my heart beat truly for you and for your purposes. Let me be shaped into the heartbeat of God……a window into heaven…..without colored glass, so not even the sound is blocked. Help me to see you and to represent you as you are.
Deliver me from selfishness…….from these momentary lapses in character and behavior……help me to stand up under the stress and to prove the work you have done in me. Let me live in the kingdom as a righteous servant who can be trusted with true authority. Help me to be a friend who can be a support in times of trouble and not retreat or become a liability because I have not dealt with my sin. Be it far from me that I would be more a hindrance than a help.
You, O’ God in your infinite wisdom a pressing me through your winepress that the true wine of your Spirit might be pressed out of my life. Like a flower when it is crushed, let me emit a true fragrance of you in every place that is the scent of heaven on earth.
“Be patient with yourself and do not fall into unbelief. Be humble in your own estimation and walk without fear. Constantly face yourself, through my word, through prayer, through coming to me in worship and seeking my face. Put yourself in a position where you have to be open and real before your brothers and sisters…….be in a place where you must express yourself daily with them and do not withdraw from them in fear or because of wounds………..
Do not let the enemy take advantage of your fears and your mistakes to cause you to stop, to stall or to turn back…….keep going! Keep Believing! Keep focused on the Heart and Hope of the Father in you. Admit when you are wrong, but press on for the high calling in Christ Jesus…..you still have the goods to make it.”
Lord, I am wrong……so wrong about a lot of things……..so distracted and feeble……..but that is where you come in……I throw myself on the altar of Grace and I choose your choice and I die to everything that was part of my Ishmael plans……whatever happens, whatever comes……let it be you
“And it will be……..And it will be…….”
This is me…..this is you…… April 18, 2008
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You are so good to me
I am so blessed…….
Help me to keep that in mind
When it seems as though my dreams fail
And everything turns to dust…..
Help me to believe,
You are still with me…….
Standing there with arms outstretched
Keep me keeping you in mind
At all times
And I will worship in this moment
This hour…..in the tempest…..in the storm
I will listen to your heartbeat
And be still…….and rejoice
I choose you…..I turn away……
I run to you……I choose to listen
I choose to grow up…..to be a man
Of God……….
There are people to help
There is injustice to fight
The light dawns…..
Will I let it dawn in me?
No time for self pity
Nor fear…….only the light of a hope
Of a God who teaches me thankfulness
And grace…….even now
Even now………
I choose to listen…..and be still…..
To press in and press on…..
In spite of the cost, I will come, I will come
I will learn to be holy…..
April 3, 2008
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You are so good to me………
You make every moment to be filled with your goodness
And I am grateful
I am so grateful…..I stand in awe……
Where am I going? I do not know…..
But, O’ Lord, Let it be You.
“Listen to Me…….Listen and Be Still…..
There is more to life than what it seems to be
And more to your God than you realize
My intention is not your intention,
Nor is your intention always what you think it is
good or bad………
But come to Me and let me show you
Who I Am…..and Who you are to Me…
Then and only then……will you truly see
The make of your character and who you are meant to be
Stop trying to do it in your own strength
You cannot fix anyone, including yourself!
But come to me…….come and dine with Me
Like Revelation 3…….and I will teach you to Be
Just BE……..
THEN you can do……..”
